Prayer Request Thread.

Thanks ladies. One word that will get me through today..... Klonopin!

Quote from arjunsr : my first venture into this thread, but please pray for a friend of mine. her mom's had many strokes, the doctors don't know why. she's incapacitated, and they've told my friend to make sure the will is in order :-/. friend's mom has been in the hospital all day after another stroke last night.

My prayers are with your friend and her family ...Praying for wisdom for the doctors treating her

Rugratsgalore..Praying for you to feel peace and not to be nervous and for your cousin's family to be comforted

for all and RG

Today was a horribly emotional day. The good things are that I was able to spend some time with my step-mom, whom I haven't talked to in 4 years. I was also able to spend time with my half brother, his wife, and their daughter, which was fantastic since I haven't talked to them in 4 years. It felt wonderful to have my step-mom at my house after the funeral, BSing like old times.

Horrible things=it being a funeral for my cousin and seeing my biological father. My heart hurts tonight. I've only had him in my life for 3 years out of my 36 years alive so I shouldn't be hurt, disappointed, or hoping for more. But, today has left me emotionally drained between seeing a 29 year old in a casket and feeling rejected by my bio father all over again. I hate him and I love him at the same time, which is very taxing on my emotions.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers, that I finally come to terms with all of this.

I really hope things get better for you, RG.

Quote from MrsMcDreamy : I really hope things get better for you, RG.

Thanks. Normally I'm ok with this be cause I don't see my bio father (he lives 3 hours away.) But, today it was tough with the added emotions of a funeral. I got a half-hearted hug from him and a stupid comment about losing touch over the past few years. More than anything, I hate myself for letting my kids know him and love him and then be hurt by him when he vanished again. I should have known better since I lived it all my life. I swore I would NEVER, EVER let him hurt me again and I'm doing just that.

I gave him my cell phone number and have left this in his court now. I can't make him love me or act like a father no matter how hard I try

Quote from RugratsGalore : Thanks. Normally I'm ok with this be cause I don't see my bio father (he lives 3 hours away.) But, today it was tough with the added emotions of a funeral. I got a half-hearted hug from him and a stupid comment about losing touch over the past few years. More than anything, I hate myself for letting my kids know him and love him and then be hurt by him when he vanished again. I should have known better since I lived it all my life. I swore I would NEVER, EVER let him hurt me again and I'm doing just that. I gave him my cell phone number and have left this in his court now. I can't make him love me or act like a father no matter how hard I try

Nor should you have to try. Don't let his actions (or lack-thereof) bring you down, though. It's a problem he has within himself; it's not about you. Just know that you have done nothing wrong to him, and you can't let his problems make you bitter. I'm sure it hurts; that's inevitable, but don't for one second think it's because there's something wrong with you. You're an amazing person, and don't let anything make you think otherwise

Quote from MrsMcDreamy : Nor should you have to try. Don't let his actions (or lack-thereof) bring you down, though. It's a problem he has within himself; it's not about you. Just know that you have done nothing wrong to him, and you can't let his problems make you bitter. I'm sure it hurts; that's inevitable, but don't for one second think it's because there's something wrong with you. You're an amazing person, and don't let anything make you think otherwise

I spent too many years thinking there was something wrong with me before I realized that if it was me, he'd have a relationship with all his other (MANY!) children, which he doesn't. I felt so rejected growing up (I mean, if even your own father can't love you, who will?)

For the record, I have a FANTASTIC step-father whom I consider my dad. I'm daddy's little girl despite no blood relation (but the emotional relationship it was counts and matters.) My dad is also a fantastic grandfather and would NEVER, EVER think of turning his back on me or my kids. And for that, I am SO grateful to him for loving me when he didn't have to and for shaping me into the person I am today. He's freakin awesome.

Quote from RugratsGalore : I spent too many years thinking there was something wrong with me before I realized that if it was me, he'd have a relationship with all his other (MANY!) children, which he doesn't. I felt so rejected growing up (I mean, if even your own father can't love you, who will?) For the record, I have a FANTASTIC step-father whom I consider my dad. I'm daddy's little girl despite no blood relation (but the emotional relationship it was counts and matters.) My dad is also a fantastic grandfather and would NEVER, EVER think of turning his back on me or my kids. And for that, I am SO grateful to him for loving me when he didn't have to and for shaping me into the person I am today. He's freakin awesome.

I know EXACTLY what you mean.

BTW, could you please pray for my biological father despite the pain he's caused me. i found out that he isn't doing very well medically. I learned tonight that about 1.5-2 years ago he had another massive heart attack and had to be revived several times with the paddles. He had open heart surgery about 15 years ago and has significant damage to his heart already. Despite all of that he hasn't made any lifestyle changes and has recently started vomitting up blood but refuses to go to the doctor or change his ways of life. I fear the next funeral I will be attending will be his.

Quote from RugratsGalore : BTW, could you please pray for my biological father despite the pain he's caused me. i found out that he isn't doing very well medically. I learned tonight that about 1.5-2 years ago he had another massive heart attack and had to be revived several times with the paddles. He had open heart surgery about 15 years ago and has significant damage to his heart already. Despite all of that he hasn't made any lifestyle changes and has recently started vomitting up blood but refuses to go to the doctor or change his ways of life. I fear the next funeral I will be attending will be his.

and to you RG ! It sounds like he may be 1 of those people who isn't capable of showing or receiving love like normal people. I say it's his loss but I'll for him along with everyone else here who needs it !

Thanks everyone. My bio father leaves tomorrow and didn't call to see me or my kids If I didn't already cry out all my tears yesterday, have a crying hangover today, and a killer headache I would probably be upset. But, right now I'm realy pissed instead and want to hunt him down and beat him down.